As Honest As I Can Be

“As honest as I can be, it’s not like you to cling to me”
she said with such sincerity that I nearly collapsed under the weight of the words.
She knew something was wrong. Her instinct didn’t take too long
to see right through the half truths and disguises I had on.

Who am I kidding? This isn’t what’s right for me.
I should have figured it out by now but I’ve been too lazy.
What am I doing here just lying on my back?
Waiting on old age and for an early heart attack.
Don’t give in now to the mundane.

And a second chance to breathe is the gift your words have given me.
Lit the spark inside that I use as the light to guide me.
Through all the darkest nights, through all these dead end streets.
I’ll find my way again…this promise I’ll always keep.

Don’t give in now to the mundane. Grab life by its head and scream in its face.
Not for a second will I be commonplace.